We Are Painting...
Current feelings summed up succintly:
...gonna kick the darkness 'till it bleeds daylight... musings of a hungarian in texas
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Another one worth contemplating, this week from the Acts:
Acts 23: 6-11:
1 And Paul, earnestly beholding the council, said, Men and
brethren, I have lived in all good conscience before God until this day.
2 And the high priest Ananias commanded them that stood by him to
smite him on the mouth.3 Then said Paul unto him, God shall smite thee, thou whited wall:
for sittest thou to judge me after the law, and commandest me to be smitten
contrary to the law?4 And they that stood by said, Revilest thou God"s high priest?
5 Then said Paul, I wist not, brethren, that he was the high
priest: for it is written, Thou shalt not speak evil of the ruler of thy people.6 But when Paul perceived that the one part were Sadducees, and the other Pharisees, he cried out in the council, Men and brethren, I am a Pharisee, the son of a Pharisee: of the hope and resurrection of the dead I am called in question.
7 And when he had so said, there arose a dissension between the
Pharisees and the Sadducees: and the multitude was divided.8 For the Sadducees say that there is no resurrection, neither
angel, nor spirit: but the Pharisees confess both.9 And there arose a great cry: and the scribes that were of the
Pharisees" part arose, and strove, saying, We find no evil in this man: but if a spirit or an angel hath spoken to him, let us not fight against
God.10 And when there arose a great dissension, the chief captain,
fearing lest Paul should have been pulled in pieces of them, commanded the soldiers to go down, and to take him by force from among them, and to bring him into the castle.11 And the night following the Lord stood by him, and said, Be of
good cheer, Paul: for as thou hast testified of me in Jerusalem, so must thou bear witness also at Rome.It often happens that all we can do is cry: why did this happen to me? My people, the Hungarians have this tendency to think that we are the unfortunate ones, who are always beaten down, and we just look on innocently as evil people trod upon us because we cannot do anything about it.
All human stories happen because there is more than one participant, and all participants of the story, inevitably, are sharing the responsibility for what happened. The apostle Paul here, used the ‘divide and conquer’ theory against his enemies himself. He did not wait like an innocent lamb for the slaughter, but devised his own plan to get out of the situation. Note though, that he did not lie while doing this. He did not seek to smear the others, just stated why he was there—for the hope of eternal life, for the resurrection of the Christ. He saw that this was the only way he could get out from a very tense situation where emotions run rather high.
Paul realized very clearly who he can and cannot count on. And he was able to accept that the people he could count on the least are his own blood. But, at the same time, he was able to say sorry to his enemies, when he realized he called the High Priest a whitewashed wall. He realized that whatever human weaknesses the man could have, his office needs to be honored.Paul was able to place himself, very realistically, in his own world, in the current situation. He understood that there is no use for high idealistic arguments at this point—he needs to get free first.
We need to ask ourselves: In our own ‘divide and conquer’ situations do we have the mindset to turn someone’s anger to a positive, beneficial, good use? Can we find clever solutions to tension in our work or family life? Or we just shoot until we are out of ammo? Or we just keep it all to ourselves, turning bitter in the process, expecting everyone to feel sorry for us?
The apostle Paul had only one goal: the gospel. God stood by him in the night, and gave him strength: he told him his life had a purpose, you had to go Rome with the gospel.
If we have a goal in life that is worth fighting for, that is not about merely existing, we will have the strength to fight smart. If we see that God called us for greater things, then we will be able to get over even the hardest crises of our life with His mercy.
I was playing with Behr's ColorSmart online paint system to pick colors for our living and dining area, and the sunroom. I came up with some cool combinations, but we need to actually go and look at these colors on paint swatches as opposed to on the screen as they can be very deceiving (I got totally different hues on my home computer and at work)...So Friday afternoon we'll stand in front of a HomeDepot paint center and argue out the exact color of paint and trim, and then finally, the Great Painting Project takes off like a very, very slow, lumbering but unstoppable black bear. We are planning on doing this is small one wall/given time increments as our schedules are rather crazy.
Several times last week and this, I hear this commercial on the radio as I am getting out of the shower. It starts with happy cheerful circus music, then an elephant trumpets, and a dramatic male voice says: "What if an elephant escapes from the circus and tramples the VERY ground you are standing on? What would your family do?" I swear, he says this...
My sweetie rocks...he got us tickets to the first row of the balcony to this show Saturday night... We saw them when they came to Dallas last year and he was mightily impressed; so this will be a semi-birthday present for himself as well. My allergies must get better by then (I am seeing my doctor Thursday morning, so I am hoping for some quality meds).
Of all places, Tom Thumb (yes, the chain grocery store) has really correct San Francisco sourdough in their gourmet bread section (Artisan Bread label). Almost correct, my native SFan sis-in-law had it over the weekend, and she liked it...:-)
Well, when it rains, it pours...another found connected to the Temple in Jerusalem. Herod's, that is. This time the quarry the stones used for the building came from was found.
So what does one do when her allergies get so bad that she literally is stuck on a couch with a box of tissues and some company to commiserate the fact that she cannot leave the house to have fun with friends as planned?
Why, oh why can't we have one of these here? While I frequent the Coppell Farmers Market (which is small, but very good), the only vendor who sells milk products there cannot sell his own cows'milk outside of his farm, which is in OK, and it is the same everywhere else.
My beautiful, harsh and often unrelenting Calvinist Church gave me this to ponder for this week.
And their commentary for it:30 If his children forsake my law, and walk not in
my judgments;
31 If they break my statutes, and
keep not my commandments;
32 Then will I visit
their transgression with the rod, and their iniquity with stripes.
33 Nevertheless my loving kindness will I not utterly
take from him, nor suffer my faithfulness to fail.
34 My covenant will I not break, nor alter the thing
that is gone out of my lips.
...the way The Husband and I always stare at the lady grackles going after the bugs in our front yard and say: "They sure look like little raptor to me..."
Can someone please explain it to lil' ol' moi how I ended up with a See's Candies catalog in my work mail box today?
This is It. No question.The end is nigh. Start stockpiling cans and ammo, people.
You'd think this article describes a banana republic. Nope. This is about my home country.
You can come out of hiding now, thanks to the breakthrough results of glorious Hungarian research triumphantly marching towards the glory of eternal sunsets and dark...
I got this CD from my boss of all people; the artist is a customer's wife. I did not have high hopes for it, (I mean, this is A CD From My Boss, right?) but boy I was pleasantly surprised. She plays the type of country that is bluesy and rock-y at the same time; the old-fashioned type, I guess. Definitely not Nashville.
"What?"you ask, Dear Reader. "It is Monday, not even noon, and The Bunny is already having peeves?" Yep, she does. They just piled up on me until critical mass was reached, so here you go.
%^&*^) Blogger ate the first posting of this, so I'll be briefer and much more grumpy than I was in the original version. When I have chipmunk cheeks from allergied sinuses the world should at least cooperate, right?
Labels: food
Allergies. Are. Not. Fun.
Psalms 84: 5-6; again from the daily contemplations on reformatus.hu.
Blessed is the man whose strength is in thee; in whose heart are the ways of
them.
Who passing through the valley of Baca make it a well; the rain also
filleth the pools.
It's just Vitamin Ch, not an addiction...
This morning, as I was about to leave the house for work, I thought I caught the silhouette of a familiar, tiny shape buzzing around our sunroom window.
'Cause they better do something about those horrific new published infant mortality rates, that's why. It is a rather dramatic increase from one year to another, and one that cannot be explained without understanding just how much in tatters Hungary's health care system is.
I am trying to stop my head from blowing up from allergies today (oh joy of ragweed) and listening to Leonard Cohen. I am cheerful today.
...and remember; always.
As summer draws to an end, we have the last abundance of beautiful eggplants and tomatoes at the farmer's market I visit every Saturday...so I dug into the fridge Sunday night and made this casserole based on an old recipe I brought with me from Hungary. With some rice, couscous or crusty bread this is the perfect summertime dinner for tow.
Labels: food
The Oseberg Ship's queen is re-exhumed for scientific investigations to figure out her relationship to the other woman she was buried with. Just like with the Jerusalem wall a few weeks back, I can see this can be spinned too for many angles...maybe I just studies history a bit too long.
Waking up on a stormy Monday morning at 0430 not so much because of the thunder and lightning as the thunderclouds sit right above our roof, but because said thunder and lightning startled the large cat sleeping on my ankle so he digs his claws reflexively into my skin and flesh--is NOT a good thing, emphatically.
Online English-Latin dictionary... and about a dozen more cool Latin works, thesauri, grammars, etc. The dictionary requires a small plugin install on your computer. Trust it, it was written by monks...:-) I love that the instructions are all in Latin too...
Friday's contemplation words, from reformatus.hu, and the commentary, translated from Hungarian. It was really hitting close to home this time:
For all this they sinned still, and believed not for his wondrous
works.
Therefore their days did he consume in vanity, and their years in
trouble.
When he slew them, then they sought him: and they returned and
enquired early after God.
And they remembered that God was their rock,
and
the high God their redeemer.
Nevertheless they did flatter him with
their
mouth, and they lied unto him with their tongues.
For their heart
was not
right with him, neither were they stedfast in his covenant.
But
he, being
full of compassion, forgave their iniquity, and destroyed them
not: yea, many a
time turned he his anger away, and did not stir up all his
wrath.
For he
remembered that they were but flesh; a wind that passeth
away, and cometh not
again.
How oft did they provoke him in the
wilderness, and grieve him in the
desert!
Yea, they turned back and
tempted God, and limited the Holy One of
Israel.
They remembered not his
hand, nor the day when he delivered them from
the enemy.
It is one of the most difficult things in our lives of our faith to look back on our sins. There are those who like to elaborate in great details, who like to boast how deep was the chasm they came back from, how deep they fell before the were saved. Others, even if they know that they received forgiveness, cannot let go of their sins and carry them as weights through their life. The history of our sins is important only because through them we can see the faithful love of God more and more. It does not matter how far we strayed, God is ready to start it over with us.
Over at Sciolist Salmagundi (link on the blogroll to the right) my friend Sal reminisced very creatively about a certain cockerel's demise which resulted in me in the Comments section recalling my grandparents' row of roosters, each called George, numbered for children's sake. I thought those comments were worth a larger blogpost here, if for nothing than to commemorate a little sliver of my childhood, the golden summers spent at my grandparent's house in the little village of Sonkad (pop:1200) in Eastern Hungary, where my grandfather was the only man of the cloth, being the Calvinist minister of the community.
RIP Luciano Pavarotti...
The sound of music...a bit differently. An interesting article about the future of the music industry, music downloads, iPods and subscription services. As one who only recently had been bit by the download music bug (but then oh boy I was bit), I find these musings very enlightening. The music I like is usually hard to find in ordinary stores, so for me, and a lot of those who like 'niche genres' the download/subscription services are a better alternative.
My favorite childhood (and adulthood) Hungarian dessert is heading to the world's biggest market-China.
No, really...how about 3,000 year old beehives? No, no bees in them, in case you were wondering.
It is kind of British weather now, with rain and dark clouds and everything glistening wet, very damp but not too cold.
There was LOT of bread-type food eaten this weekend, for which I need to pay the price on the treadmill soon...but yes, kolaches at the Czech Stop on I-35 at West, TX are still amazing, and still available 24/7. And the beignets at Grand Lux Cafe are absolutely sinful too, yep.
Labels: food
I crashed The Husband's 1302 History class yesterday morning at 0900am at Collin County Community College. We were to depart for the annual WestFest in West, TX in the afternoon after his class, and timing-wise this was just the prudent thing to do. So I took a seat in the back and thought I can just be observant and quiet and unobtrusive...